Saturday, February 28, 2009

A Little More...





As I sit here at 1:30 in the morning, not sleeping, I figure I should write a blog. I do have a few to catch up on.
So here is a little more about my trip. I want to post about the Utah part of my blog. Whenever I make a road trip to Utah, coming into the valley and seeing familiar sights I always feel like I am home. It is a bittersweet feeling. I love where I live and the people that I am surrounded with, but Utah IS home. Some people will be shocked to hear that because for so long I claimed Arizona as home. Arizona is familiar for me, but doesn't have the same feeling as Utah. So moving on. We got Salt Lake and we stopped at the Church Distribution Center. I got a new set of scriptures with my name on them and I also got Laura her long awaited set with her name on it. She has wanted them for years, just never happened. After we left there we went to Mike and Tiffany's house. Mikey was home with Kloey and as we pulled up, Kloey was in the window waving her arms in the air and smiling and laughing. It was so cute. We got inside and she was clingy to her dad...it took her a while to get used to us again because we don't see her very often. I didn't get very many pictures because my camera battery died and I didn't have my charger with me. I was able to use my dad's camera while on this trip. Thank you dad!! We hung out and my dad was able to bribe Kloey with a $5.00 bill to get a hug. She showed us her dolls and was so talkative. She sure has quite a personality. Tiffany got home and we went to dinner at Red Lobster. Kloey was so cute she said she wanted "Shwimp!" It was so cute. We even got to pet a lobster on our way out. She wouldn't touch it, but she thought it was cool. We went back to Mikey's and was getting ready for bed. Anthony was home and since he and I are alike it the fact that we are insomniacs...we watched the pilot episode of "Arrested Development" I was actually surprised that I liked it. Laura and I tried watching it a few months back and I wasn't to into it. I really liked it. Then I worked on a little homework and I think I ended up upstairs at like 5 in the morning sleeping on the couch. Kloey woke up and went to her mom and said, "Scary noise" Yes she was talking about my snoring!! My mom and dad got up and we got Kloey ready to go to breakfast. I did her hair and she had to do Grandpa's hair. She is so cute. My mom was driving to breakfast and she took a corner kind of sharp and Kloey says, "You crazy driver Grandma!" It was so funny. We had breakfast and then ran some errands. We got back and Anthony was home. We left while Kloey took a nap and Anthony was home. I was going to see my friend Shari. I had talked to her the night before and said that she was going to be getting a package the next day. I told her that I would schedule the delivery for about 1. I got to her house about 1:20 and totally surprised her. She had no idea that I was going to be there. It was a nice surprise and I was so happy to see her. We spent the next few hours talking and lifting each others spirits. It was nice to talk to her and be in her presence. Shari is one amazing lady. I didn't get any pictures of her this trip, but last April, Laura took a few shots of Shari and me. It was a much needed visit for the both of us. I can't wait to go back to Utah and see Shari again. I think if it was possible I would move back to Utah in a heartbeat. We only spent 1 whole day in Utah, here are some more pictures of hanging out with Kloey, Anthony and my parents.

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

My Spontanious Road Trip...



I have put off blogging about my whole trip because I love looking at my blog and seeing my blog about Jake Walden...seeing it, reading it helps me to relive it. I have his CD "Alive and Screaming" so that helps me relive it also. He is amazing!

So moving on...to the rest of the trip. On our drive to AZ from Vegas I was watching the rain clouds come in and thinking about all that had happened with meeting Jake and his family and just the amazement of it all, I heard Jake singing a song...I pulled out my laptop and wrote the words down as they came flowing out of my mind. I just wanted to share the words with you all. I am becoming more daring in sharing the things I write, it is super scary, but at the same time feels right. Right now as I am trying to put those words in here my heart is racing and I feel so anxious and vulnerable. This was written for Jake, inspired by Jake...

Inspirations come and go

Inspirations ebb and flow

I felt it cement in my soul, the day I heard your voice

Your words calmed my fears, I felt my heart rejoice

Hope is not lost

Reach for it at any cost

My hopes and dreams came alive, the day I saw your face

You shared your soul with me, in that time and place

Sing for the entire world

Let your emotions unfurled

I felt your words open my heart, in the moment we shared

You unlocked a gate, and for a moment I was scared

Open your eyes and see

A clear image of who you want to be

Open your eyes and see

A clearer image of who you are to be

Be brave in your journey

Be strong in your learning

I believe in you, I believe in you

Your task is just beginning; your journey is not through

So open your eyes and see

Open your eyes and see

The image of you who I can see

The image of who you can be

So there that is. It gets better and better each time I have shared it, it hasn't been with many, but enough to feel it.

I have to backtrack a little. The whole thing starts with my parents coming to Oregon. We had a lot of fun hanging out, singing Sing-Star...yes my dad and mom sang quite a few songs. I won't embarass my dad to much...I'll just post a couple of pictures....Here are my mom, dad, and I singing songs...I didn't get a good picture of Laura that night...so I will be nice to her! We had so much fun singing and "pretending" we were just taking pictures...not videos! Those are for our eyes only till my dad says it's okay!







So my parents also brought my cats up to me...Syd and Ali. They will be 3 in March! I love those kitties so much. I was so happy to see them. Ali is a fat cat and she loves feet...we walk by her and she would just pounce on your feet. She is a talkative cat too. She will sit in the window and talk to the birds! I love it. She is a quirky kitty! Syd is my baby. When she was a kitten she would sleep on my chest with her front paws on one side of my neck and her back paws on the other side of the other side my neck. I love both my cats so much! Here are a few pictures of them from when they were kittens til now.


So I think that is all I am going to post until now...I don't want it to be to long, and I am tired! I will post tomorrow or the next day I will blog about the Utah part of the trip and more! Til then, have fun and be happy!

Saturday, February 7, 2009

"...I'm Just Speakin' From My Heart...."


As Jake put it...tonight was very serendipitous... So let me explain. Last week my parents came to Oregon for a visit and to bring me my cats. They told me that when they were leaving they were stopping off in Utah. I thought that it would be a good thing for me to go...so I went with them. Wednesday night I asked my mom when we were leaving for Arizona, she said we were leaving Friday morning and staying in Laughlin for the night. Later that night I checked my email and saw that Jake Walden was performing in Vegas Friday night. I asked my mom if it would be a possibility to make it to the venue. She said yes, and re-booked us for Vegas!
I was so excited. I was going to see him in concert. The whole time I was thinking that he would be on stage and there was going to be a small audience, and that maybe there was a chance to get a CD, have it signed, shake his had, say a few words and maybe a picture or two. That was not how the evening turned out. It was so much more amazing than I could have ever asked for or expected.
My mom and I went to The Artisan Hotel, we got there early...(wasn't sure how to get there)...we got inside and I was amazed that there was a piano right there with very intimate seating and lighting and such a beautiful place. We sat there for a while and watched Joe, the sound guy, making sure that everything was in place and working. Two women came off the elevator and had a couple of small boxes and they were looking for another box that was supposed to be down there. I watched them set up a few things, and one of the ladies came over and asked a question, then she asked if we were here to see Jake? I told her yes, and that I was so excited because I wrote a blog about him and she was like your Bren? She told us that he had forwarded that onto his family and so they kind of knew who I was. This lady was Jake's aunt! I was so floored and amazed that they knew who I was. So we chatted for awhile about Jake and family and little things. They are amazing ladies! I want to say Hi to Lori and Heather! You two are so sweet and amazing! I am so glad that I got to meet the two of you and hope to see you in the future! I bought two of Jake's CD's and had a nice little chat about Jake and how his music and words have touched my life. He inspires me to let my creativity show. I have written poems and in a journal for years, but have kept them close to me and only shared them with close friends and family. He makes me feel like I can share it with more people.
Jake finally came out of the elevator and I was in awe that he was really there and that he would be sitting so close. He sat down and looked at me and gave me a smile like he may have recognized me. I wasn't to sure. He sang his songs so beautifully, with just the piano, his words and his voice. He started out with "Be Still", which is simply a beautiful song. His voice carries such emotion and inspiration. I love how he starts out with playing the introduction and then says the name of the song. I also love that he plays with no shoes on! So cute! He then sang "Desperado" for his parents. It was a beautiful dedication to his parents, who have been married 33 years! I don't know them, but they sure have raised an amazing young man, full of emotion and love. Then he sang "The Line", my favorite line from that song that is "...Sometimes I wonder if you'll know how very rare you are..." His words are so so beautiful and vulnerable. Then he sang "For Someone" there are no words to describe how this song makes me feel. The line in there.."..I'm just speakin' from my heart..." is exactly how his whole album is, and even when he does covers he put the emotion in every word and has such intensity. He did a cover of "Bleeding Love" and it is a very beautiful version. I love the words, but I love the emotion that Jake puts behind the words. You feel the meaning of the words and I don't know how anyone wouldn't feel something when Jake sings. The next song that he sings is special to me. It has a lot of meaning and fits so perfectly into my life in so many ways. He sang "We Are" and just before he started the song, he looked right at me and said "This is for you"...How amazing is that?? I couldn't believe it. He is so so kind and genuine. It's funny how he said it was for me how much hope it gives me, the words give you hope, and I believe that "We are not broken" Through everything in life we are not broken, many things tear us down and hurt us, but we come through it stronger and more capable of growing and becoming who we are to become. This song has so much meaning to me. He sang a song that I cannot remember the name of, but it was so beautiful, I think I was still somewhere thinking "Did he just say that this song was for me? How amazing is this? Did that really happen?" and how I wished so much that my best friend, Laura could be there to share this with me. "We Are" is her "faborite" song! I love you Lo! and I miss you so so so very much! This song also reminded me of my dear dear friend Shari and how much she has taken recently and she is not broken! She is amazing, I love you Shari!! Back to Jake. He then sang "Wide Awake" I love that song! My favorite line in that is "...you're the only calm I've know..." There have been times in my life where those exact words were applicable. He then introduced his aunts and cousins that were there and spoke such lovely words of his grandmother. He sang "The Storm" and it was beautiful. My mom cried as did I. As Jake said this song wasn't written for his grandmother, but that it changed, into something new. I think that true, heartfelt, raw music is an art form that has been lost in the world of mainstream music, the music that is just out there to make someone another buck. Jake has this true, heartfelt raw art that connects people and many people can take one of his songs and it will mean something to them. It can mean anything to anyone of us if we take the time to truly listen and give the art of music a real listen. Jake sang "Alive and Screaming" for Verena. At this point I just have to say that ALL his songs are my favorite you just can't pick just one. This song has such a beautiful history to it. I don't know that I could tell like Jake does, but go to his myspace page http://www.myspace.com/jakewalden...you can read how many of his songs have such a deep meaning to Jake. Jake asked for any special request from Verena, she really didn't say anything and someone else said a cover of a Beatles song, Jake didn't go for that. I really wanted to hear "Too Young"! He wasn't sure at first because he hadn't played it in a long time, but I gave him a double thumbs up and told him he would do great. I love love that song. It breaks my heart when I have lost touch with someone that I thought would be in my life all the time. I have been lucky enough to find some "old friends" and been able to reconnect with them, and friends are truly a blessing. I have some of the most wonderful friends and family in my life and I cherish every single one of them. I try so hard to let them know how much they mean to me, because life can throw some rough stuff your way, and you never know what will happen or who you could lose. Everyone then said "ENCORE! ENCORE" He did a cover of "Yellow" by Coldplay and I like Jake's version better, even though he didn't know all of it, it was pretty great!
He was done singing! I was sad, I think that I could listen to Jake sing the ABC's and still feel awe! We all got up to shake hands, chat a little, get our CD's signed and meet Jake. I became very nervous at this point. His aunts and my mom kept encouraging me to get up there, but I was waiting for the right moment. My mom was so wonderful to be there with me and I am so glad to have her in my life. This road trip has been so amazing and I have seen again how wonderful my parents are. I love you both so much and thank you for bringing me here!! Jake came over to me and he said HE was HONORED to meet ME?? He is so gracious and humble. I was HONORED to meet HIM! We shared some lovely words that will forever inspire my soul. Jake truly is an angel and we are all so blessed to have the privilege to share in his soul and his journey through life.
Thank you Jake for letting us into the depths of your soul and for being so very brave in putting yourself out there. Keep your family and friends close and let them keep you grounded. I believe that most of the people in the world are good, but there will be people that will try to break you down. Don't let them and just be who you are, and you will gain strength and character as you go on this journey. You have inspired me and I am so grateful that I have had the pleasure to be in your company in such a beautiful setting.